My Relationship with Social Media

Some days I come to this little blog of mine here in the great big cyberworld and just as soon as my fingers hit the keyboard, the words flow out of me as if by magic, like the post is writing itself and I'm just along for the ride.


I love those days.  


Other days I come here with so many miscellaneous and random thoughts, words and ideas bouncing around in my head, yet find it impossible to separate them and string them together into a post I find acceptable and worthy enough to share out here on the worldwide web because like most of us,  I am and most likely forever will be, my very own worst critic. 


When those days happen, I feel somehow off my axis for the rest of the day.  It's as if something is missing and I'm incomplete.   


I'm a quiet person by nature...always have been.  There have been times in my life that I wished that were not the case and tried desperately to change, to be more like those charming, witty, outgoing individuals I've always been drawn to.


But that is not who I am, not who God made me to be, and once I accepted that and embraced it, I became a much happier me.
 
Expressing myself out loud is often very difficult and challenging for me.  I struggle to find the words, pull them out, and push them past my lips in a way that truly gets my point across.  I always beat myself up after a conversation... Why did I say?...What I really meant to say was...
 
But here, in cyberland, it's so much easier to be the charming me, the real me who often struggles to get out.  
 
Social media has fast become an addiction for a great majority of us.  Facebook started it all for me.  I find it much easier to send someone I kinda know, or knew once upon a time, a friend request than I would ever find it to walk up to them and initiate a conversation in the real world. 

Here, online, I can be one of those witty, charming, outgoing people I have always admired and noone is the wiser. 

I think this is one of the many reason why I love blogging so much.  It allows me to free myself of some of the random thoughts that clutter my mind.  It calms and soothes me in a way that nothing else can. 

While I wouldn't go so far as to say it has changed who I am as a person, other than the part about me carrying my blackberry around like it's some sort of oxygen tank I need to breathe so that I can check to see if anyone told me how awesome I am on my blog or facebook today  it has awakened me and allowed me to become a better version of myself. 

So what about you?  How has social media changed or affected your life?